I understand that no matter how many ppl surround you, you can still feel the emptiness in you.

I’m not gona run away. I’m still gona be here. Anytime for you.

Enjoy rewarding oneself after hardwork. Like totally.

There’s only so much you can help.

I need to keep everything back in track.

I wonder how I stood strong during that 9 months, but I’m glad its all over. And each time you try to invade my mind, I see Ju’s face. I see what’s in store for me, I see where my patience brings me to. I see what HE plan for me.

For that, I definitely am thankful for all the painful, expensive, heart wrenching experiences that I went through. For I meet a wonderful man at the end of all those crazy episodes.

This wonderful man, makes me a happy in the simplest way anyone can ever think of.

Sixteen thousand odd.

Two more times and I can soak in the sun as much as I want.

Hopefully all’s well. InsyaAllah.

On a lighter note.
Approximately 24.

I hope my pocket doesn’t break.

There’s this space in my heart, probably because I am too excited for the outing or probably because I havnt been having a peaceful moment for quite sometime.

I can’t sleep despite the fact that I am uber exhausted.

I keep thinking of a quiet, nice place where I get to let my hair totally down. I don’t have to worry about chasing after 35. I don’t have to worry about the emails that I have to follow up.

I really see the need to balance it all up. Goodnight.

Its always easier to say “cry over it & move on.” Seriously its easier with few practises. Been that done that.

PS: whether is it with diff people or the same person over & over again.

I’ve always like how those humble low profile people work. I like how quiet yet determine they are. I like how much they potray themselves despite the fact that they are indeed the ones who should walk with their heads high.

There’s something wrong with me, I am withdrawing slowly from the people around me. All I want to do is to fall deep into sleep and not be disturb at all.

Wednesday is a good thing I guess.

I should really learn how to relax, I am too intense. I think too much, but if I really do not think then what happen if all turn out wrong? I don’t want to be saying, “I should have..” At the end of the day.

Seriously, inhale & exhale.

Sometimes when I look down then do I realise that my time is running close pretty fast.

I need to stay focus & Ju, well he’s been a pretty incredible & amazing partner to start with, almost all the time.